What to do about To-Do?

I used to keep most of my long term “to do” list in my head.. or scattered around in notes on scraps of paper.  Now it’s on a spread sheet.  All in one place.  Sorta nice to get it out of my head.  But now I’m afraid to look at the master list.  I started to categorize and prioritize the list… and made pretty good progress for awhile at moving things to the DONE category.  Not lately.  Lately, I just avoid looking at it or (for the most part) thinking about it too much.  When the thought of it comes into my mind, my usual response is to kick it out… and go watch TV or play my Brain Games… or whatever else is mindless and simple at the time.  Haha. Mindless brain games?  Hard to explain but yes.

Right now I’m thinking I should get out my list since I am writing about it.. but nope.. can’t make myself do it.  I no longer seem to like my list much.

I think I will ponder a name for this blog instead.

• Ramble  (reminds me of the old song, "Ramblin' Rose)
• mom mumbles  (no, I don't mumble)
• mom mutters (I'd rather not mutter. it sounds sooo?? so what? I don't know, but not good)
• In My Head (pretty ordinary.  I'd rather not be ordinary)
• Brain Farts (cliche and too un-classy...need to keep a certain level of decorum)
• Random Thoughts (precise, but ordinary)
• Unfiltered Keystrokes  (hey... I think this one is a winner...???)

Dang!  Now I’m thinking I’ll NEVER attack that to do list.  I enjoy writing and maybe this is ALL I will do.  I seem to have a problem with focus.  When I decide to do something (and REALLY decide) then I have trouble shifting from that to other things… the other things that I DO do, are kinda half-hearted and done as quickly as possible (with less than perfect results) just so that I can do the thing I am focused on.  Hummm  a lot to consider.  Perhaps I should put this on my to-do list… not the writing, the thinking about whether or not I should.

One thing is decided though.. I will name this blog Unfiltered Keystrokes.